“Keep Myself Busy”
By Ron Stultz
Keep myself busy
but doesn’t help much.
You always here
inside me.
My mind
My heart.
I saw you.
The you, buried so deep
by so much.
Saw you.
Felt you.
Touched you.
Can not forget.
Don’t want to forget.
Blue.
Sad.
But can’t show you.
Mustn’t.
You can’t feel the way I do.
You been too long another way.
I understand.
But understanding does not help.
What was I doing?
Why did you go, come, along?
I reach out.
Touch your face.
See you smile.
Why do I torture myself?
You say you do not want to hurt me
and then
you do
again
and again.
Wish I could be
half-way
with you.
Just a friend
but I can’t.
Must forget
your name,
your smile.
The you I saw
Must keep myself busy.