Ron Stultz

"I Keep Myself Busy"

Keep myself busy

but doesn t help much.

You always here

inside me.

My mind

My heart.

I saw you.

The you, buried so deep

by so much.

Saw you.

Felt you.

Touched you.

Can not forget.

Don t want to forget.

Blue.

Sad.

But can t show you.

Mustn t.

You can t feel the way I do.

You been too long another way.

I understand.

But understanding does not help.

What was I doing?

Why did you go, come, along?

I reach out.

Touch your face.

See you smile.

Why do I torture myself?

You say you do not want to hurt me

and then

you do

again

and again.

Wish I could be

half-way

with you.

Just a friend

but I can t.

Must forget

your name,

your smile.

The you I saw

Must keep myself busy.